Hello All,
Today wasn't so bad. I was able to get an appointment for my son, my ex and myself to go in for an assessment of "our"needs. I actually got my ex to come. That may be the only one he comes to however one is better than none.I believe you are right when you say that the issue with my son is his dad. My son and I often had conversations about how his dad would have a new girlfriend (with her own kids) and within months without word or even being asked, my son's room would go to the other kid. The first time that happened my son was so hurt. Both of my boys tell me that it makes them upset because they feel their dad wants some fantasy life with his new girlfriend and his old girlfriends daughter. Yes, you heard me right. The old girlfriends daughter comes over like he is her dad. The boys hate that sometimes because they feel he gives more attention to her than he ever did them. I know my ex loves our boys but he doesn't take time for them ever. He has always given them whatever they wanted whenever they wanted it and now we are feeling the wrath of that. At my home it has always been quite the opposite. Anyway this can be a forever story and maybe some day I'll have time to give it all to you however I just want to say that I feel good today. Somewhat sad, stressed however I feel some happiness too. I have a daughter 13, twins 3 at home with me. Both of my boys 17 and 16 are the ones with their dad. I also have the greatest husband in the world. Today, I will let myself be happy and greatfull for that.
Much love to you all,
Cathy
Hi Cathy,
I so glad you were able to get an assessment for your son. Your situation with your x Husband I'm sure is hard. I know I have a xhusband too and it breaks my heart sometimes when It come to the way he treats our kids, (very similar situation) but I have to remember that's his stuff and I can only be the best mom I can be. But I know it still hurts. I am really glad you can still see the wonderful things in your life even when there is conflict going on.A lot people can't see past a problem and they miss out on great stuff going on around them.
Thanks for checking in. It's very important for people to read that even though things are not perfect you can still be happy and grateful.
Love and support,
Recovery Happens
I so glad you were able to get an assessment for your son. Your situation with your x Husband I'm sure is hard. I know I have a xhusband too and it breaks my heart sometimes when It come to the way he treats our kids, (very similar situation) but I have to remember that's his stuff and I can only be the best mom I can be. But I know it still hurts. I am really glad you can still see the wonderful things in your life even when there is conflict going on.A lot people can't see past a problem and they miss out on great stuff going on around them.
Thanks for checking in. It's very important for people to read that even though things are not perfect you can still be happy and grateful.
Love and support,
Recovery Happens
Dear Recovery Happens
your story sounds so much like mine i to turned to God I surrendered to him i gavehim my addiction of 30years. it was truely a miracle. but here is were are story differs. after 2years of cleanliness i relapsed this was 4years ago. and ive been miserable i so much want to stop but im afraid to face God again i mean he did such a wonderful thing in my life and in one instence i through it all away i feel unworthy of Gods love now. do you have any advice for me. thanks Sunday
your story sounds so much like mine i to turned to God I surrendered to him i gavehim my addiction of 30years. it was truely a miracle. but here is were are story differs. after 2years of cleanliness i relapsed this was 4years ago. and ive been miserable i so much want to stop but im afraid to face God again i mean he did such a wonderful thing in my life and in one instence i through it all away i feel unworthy of Gods love now. do you have any advice for me. thanks Sunday
Dear Sunday,
God loves you no matter what. He is a forgiving God you just have to ask him for help. He knows what you are going through. Drug addiction is so powerful and it can grab ahold of us if we don't stay on top of our recovery. You do have away out. He hasn't turned his back on you all you got to do is believe. You need to forgive yourself. My heart goes out to you. I so hate this disease. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You know what you have to do, so just do it. Being full of fear and shame is what keeps so many people locked in to their addiction. You stopped before you can do it again. Walk through the pain it gets better. There is life after meth. God will always love you, you just have to let him!!!
Love and support,
R.H.
God loves you no matter what. He is a forgiving God you just have to ask him for help. He knows what you are going through. Drug addiction is so powerful and it can grab ahold of us if we don't stay on top of our recovery. You do have away out. He hasn't turned his back on you all you got to do is believe. You need to forgive yourself. My heart goes out to you. I so hate this disease. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You know what you have to do, so just do it. Being full of fear and shame is what keeps so many people locked in to their addiction. You stopped before you can do it again. Walk through the pain it gets better. There is life after meth. God will always love you, you just have to let him!!!
Love and support,
R.H.
Dear Sunday, I wantyou to know and to remember that we care very much for you. That we've all walked the same path. God loves us all and knows and understands our temptation and lapses and he is still there to enfold us with his love, understanding and most of all his forgiveness. He knows that sometimes we stumble and even trip on our path through life and he patiently waits for us to ask for his help and his support to help us get back up and walking straight again. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and I hope you realize we are here to help one another in this struggle to survive. Thank you for sharing, I know you must be feeling a lot of pain and it must hurt to be so truthful about your battle with our enemy-addiction. Keep up the battle and I hope you win this war. Linda
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