Thank you Bob.... the work that went into it? Oh my God. It gets harder every day, but better. I love that there is hope and light and the end of this tunnel of nightmare.
xxx
CG
I feel like my body is made of lead and I'm dragging lead weights behind me. My bills sit unpaid.
I've been reaching out to the only two people who know me, my mom and dad. I feel like a young teen beseeching parents to notice my struggle before time runs out.
Notice me, do you see my appearance? When is the last time you saw me outside, do you know I am not eating well? How about do something I normally enjoy? Have you heard me express hope for my future and my son's lately? When you are here do I seem to be aimlessly walking around the house?
Have I been keeping my committments? Do I even make committments anymore? Ask me if I am in pain, I often don't show it because we all know squeaky wheels don't get the grease, they get replaced.
I've been reaching out to the only two people who know me, my mom and dad. I feel like a young teen beseeching parents to notice my struggle before time runs out.
Notice me, do you see my appearance? When is the last time you saw me outside, do you know I am not eating well? How about do something I normally enjoy? Have you heard me express hope for my future and my son's lately? When you are here do I seem to be aimlessly walking around the house?
Have I been keeping my committments? Do I even make committments anymore? Ask me if I am in pain, I often don't show it because we all know squeaky wheels don't get the grease, they get replaced.
Lisalew - you have your parents to help you during this difficult time when so many others have no one to turn to. How great is that! This is serious shi$ you're going thru, who cares how you look or if the bills are gonna be a few days late. This is a life altering decision you're making. Hang in there and keep posting. Jim
Sorry, I don't know your story, but meetings are also a great way to get support during this difficult time.
Sorry, I don't know your story, but meetings are also a great way to get support during this difficult time.
Hi Jim,
Thanks for your post. The problem is they see me often, but yet they do not see me. They offer little to no help. I should stop before my resentment starts to show.
Thanks for your post. The problem is they see me often, but yet they do not see me. They offer little to no help. I should stop before my resentment starts to show.
Resentments have always done me in, but the problem was the other person never had a clue. My mind was racing with negative thoughts and spiraling out of control, and eventually I'd either lose it or use to escape. Now I've learned that to avoid the same behavior I need to be totally honest. It's taking a lot of work but by expressing myself I'm not stuffing bad feelings and letting them eat me up. But it's not easy I know.
You have a young child, a real gift. Do you have friends or others you can touch base with for support? Or an NA or AA meeting?
Something / anything to get out of your own mind.
You have a young child, a real gift. Do you have friends or others you can touch base with for support? Or an NA or AA meeting?
Something / anything to get out of your own mind.
Lisalew...resentments keep us sick. Time to get busy girl. I know you feel like crap and it's so hard to get motivated when we feel like this, but there are others who you can talk too and who can help. Others who are in the same boat as you and can relate to you. Look in your local phone book and find NA or AA meetings. Then get your butt there. Even if you don't feel like talking, you can listen. You'll hear your story and you'll hear stories of hope and inspirations. Read everything you can on this board. Ask questions and find out what others did to get clean and help themselves.
You're a big girl now and sometimes parents of adult children just don't know what to do. It's not their fault. Instead of waiting for them to notice you, make yourself heard. You are so worth this and so is your child.
xxx
Cowgirl
You're a big girl now and sometimes parents of adult children just don't know what to do. It's not their fault. Instead of waiting for them to notice you, make yourself heard. You are so worth this and so is your child.
xxx
Cowgirl
