Hey Mark
Thats great that u got ur a** to a meetin!! Well done. Its amazin how many similarities we find in those rooms!!
Gota go off to see my mum
Have a good day - whateva time it is there
Luv n Hugs
xxx
Haylz
I'm really glad that you are realizing that this is a continuous process. You have a long road ahead. I think the program offers the tools to deal with difficult times. I'm really happy that you opened up to the idea that you can't do this alone.
The fact that you are giving credit to your higher power is a good sign. You asked, he answered. Aiden coming to you door was nothing short of a miracle.
I would suggest that you take your time getting back into your business. Don't try to tackle everything at once. Your priority should be to work on getting well. All the rest can wait..... or easy does it as they say.
p.s. I read some of your earlier posts. Are you taking the sub? Valium, percocet?
The fact that you are giving credit to your higher power is a good sign. You asked, he answered. Aiden coming to you door was nothing short of a miracle.
I would suggest that you take your time getting back into your business. Don't try to tackle everything at once. Your priority should be to work on getting well. All the rest can wait..... or easy does it as they say.
p.s. I read some of your earlier posts. Are you taking the sub? Valium, percocet?
Congratulations.All you have to do right now is to become willing to accept change.
Aiden called on his way to a meeting in North Scottsdale. He woke me at 7. I was showered and dressed and got there ten minutes early at 7:45!
It was AA, but much different crowd than the one last night. Found a couple guys that I can really relate to.
Btw, the only drugs I've taken in17 days now is the sleeping pills the doc gave me to help me through the sleeplesss nights. I've even taken to cutting them in half and find that's enough. As soon as I can possibly sleep on my own by two in the morning, I'm cutting them out and I will then only be on Diet Coke and cigarettes as far as drugs go. (nicotine and caffeine). I can live with that.
After the meeting, went to breakfast at my sisters house and explained to her and her husband that I'll given up and asked for the intervention of a higher power to help me through AA/NA. Very supportive and impressed.
I've been to three meetings in twelve hours now, and NA this evening. That one is mostly younger crowd all tattoo'd up and so on, but we're all in the same boat! I'm the oldest one in that room, but I promised I'd return so I will!
I've begun the journey.
Mark
It was AA, but much different crowd than the one last night. Found a couple guys that I can really relate to.
Btw, the only drugs I've taken in17 days now is the sleeping pills the doc gave me to help me through the sleeplesss nights. I've even taken to cutting them in half and find that's enough. As soon as I can possibly sleep on my own by two in the morning, I'm cutting them out and I will then only be on Diet Coke and cigarettes as far as drugs go. (nicotine and caffeine). I can live with that.
After the meeting, went to breakfast at my sisters house and explained to her and her husband that I'll given up and asked for the intervention of a higher power to help me through AA/NA. Very supportive and impressed.
I've been to three meetings in twelve hours now, and NA this evening. That one is mostly younger crowd all tattoo'd up and so on, but we're all in the same boat! I'm the oldest one in that room, but I promised I'd return so I will!
I've begun the journey.
Mark
Hey Mark
It's so good that you have the support of your family to lean on. My family (siblings) steers clear of me and my efforts in recovery so they won't have to be confronted with their own addictions. My kids know about my history with substance abuse but we don't talk much about it. It really does help having people that know what the scoop is, doesn't it?
Hope you're having a good day!
Callie
It's so good that you have the support of your family to lean on. My family (siblings) steers clear of me and my efforts in recovery so they won't have to be confronted with their own addictions. My kids know about my history with substance abuse but we don't talk much about it. It really does help having people that know what the scoop is, doesn't it?
Hope you're having a good day!
Callie
I am so glad you posted on the PP board to come here and read this thread. I usually only go to the PP board and sometimes the Suboxone board as that is what i am using to get through my trials with this disease. Your story has really touched me and from your first post to your last I felt like was watching you grow as a person and that is an amazing thing.
I resisted NA at first as well and like you seem to be, I was very impressed on my first visit over a month ago that I haven't missed a meeting yet. I am glad you are fighting through this and getting straight bro, I hope one day to see your book on the shelves, guaranteed, I will pick it up.
Best of luck and remember if one day at a time is too much, some folks before us went and broke days down to hours, minutes and seconds, so just pick whichever one works best for you at the moment.
I resisted NA at first as well and like you seem to be, I was very impressed on my first visit over a month ago that I haven't missed a meeting yet. I am glad you are fighting through this and getting straight bro, I hope one day to see your book on the shelves, guaranteed, I will pick it up.
Best of luck and remember if one day at a time is too much, some folks before us went and broke days down to hours, minutes and seconds, so just pick whichever one works best for you at the moment.
Thanks for that, Matt. I appreciate it. I like the happy word thing too. I'll use it.
Mark
Mark
Well, I'll be 90 days clean on friday, Sept.25th. I went back and read this and my early threads.
I haven't been back to read this one since I moved over to the pp board.
It does me good to see how messed up I was just to remind me. I tend to minimize and forget the negative aspects of my illness and just remember the "good" times.
I'm working the steps and have gone to AA and NA meetings one to three times a day since I started.
I think I'll figure out how to print out this thread. I need to save it.
Thanks to all who contributed to saving me.
Mark
I haven't been back to read this one since I moved over to the pp board.
It does me good to see how messed up I was just to remind me. I tend to minimize and forget the negative aspects of my illness and just remember the "good" times.
I'm working the steps and have gone to AA and NA meetings one to three times a day since I started.
I think I'll figure out how to print out this thread. I need to save it.
Thanks to all who contributed to saving me.
Mark
