I think someone left my switch on in a previous life because I was addicted the first pill I took.(and I kinda knew it) The strange thing is, I drank alchohol on occasion for years, but it NEVER grabbed ahold of me like opiates did.
Reagrds,
tom
lol...... I saw my dad drink all my life... I never had a problem with alcohol per se... but.... opiates.. I dont know when I 'liked' them.. I was in sooo much pain at first that I dont know when I noticed but I should have known with my backround and that knowledge or that belief has caused me great guilt for a long time.... but....
as for your situation... maybe you should become a lab experiement...lol. just kiddding but seriously there is so much they know now that they didnt know then and so much more to learn that it is scarey... for the sake of others and our children I hope they keep vigulant on the research cause the drugs certainly arent going anywhere and this disease is killing people....
Teresa
as for your situation... maybe you should become a lab experiement...lol. just kiddding but seriously there is so much they know now that they didnt know then and so much more to learn that it is scarey... for the sake of others and our children I hope they keep vigulant on the research cause the drugs certainly arent going anywhere and this disease is killing people....
Teresa
I'd like to say I agree with alot of you saying that what we have is a disease is a cop out or an excuse,But I have been using drugs from a very young age.And now I am 26 I was addicted to alcohol and coke for years and then I found painkillers and the opiod suited me very well.cuz I can take as much as I want when I want and somewhat function.I am one of those guys who would do any drug whenever you name it and I've done it.I just count my blessings that I did not get into heroin because I would of defintley would have been addicted to that.So two weeks ago I decided to get help cuz I was sick of the pain of using and you all know what I mean cuz I was a career addict meaning I made using drugs my career.Me and my friends had a joke saying that we were proffesionals big joke that turned out to be.I just know now I am so disgusted with that whole lifestyle that I wanna stay clean so bad.I know I am going on and on but I just want to say if its not a disease what the hell is wrong with us.I just want to say I was using drugs to numb the pain of life I know that for sure and I love to be high I mean me and my friends used to mix all these drugs just to see who can feel the most f****d up! crazy huh?Well if its not a disease what is it.Cuz someone who is normal does not do what I have done.My friends are still using.And I almost feel like I was weak that I got help but I know that is not true.So what is being an addict mean or what is wrong with us?
Wow WhatHaveIdone, so much of what you said hits home with me and rings so true (would take everything and anything I could get my hands on, wasn't picky). Wonder if cancer patients have the same or similiar thoughts of what us addicts go through?? Like it doesn't seem to matter what our DOC was, we all experience the exact same, feelings, emotions etc. You're not alone buddy, niehter of us are..........now we just need to figure out if it's a good or bad thing? lol
Chris I am glad you read my post.Really glad!We are not alone there are probably thousands of us out there.Man I just got so much on my mind so much unfinished bussiness money I owe,legal problems I can begin I mean not major legal problems just little stuff I didn't show up for court cuz i was going through wd.But whatever little by little things will sort.I just have this huge problem of thinking of the big picture i cant use ever again ever!Which is a joke but that is the truth!But in NA's words they say look at it by day meaning I can't use today.and tommorow.Time will only tell but I am so sick of what I have become I seriously doubt that I will use again cuz I am sick of being of being sick of it!!!! I AM SICK OF BEING SICK AND BEING SICK OF IT!!!!
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dear ali -
is it your intent to bring all of the messages that you have read on PA to this board? and with permission? i want to make it very clear that the mgrs of the PA board did not give this permission.
hugs -
sammy
is it your intent to bring all of the messages that you have read on PA to this board? and with permission? i want to make it very clear that the mgrs of the PA board did not give this permission.
hugs -
sammy
dear ms. ali,
i guess you must be quite surprised to see that some of us from the 'other' message board that you refer to, are also members here and i might add, on many other sites as well. so watch yourself and what you blab about.
do not EVER AGAIN, ali, quote me, refer to my posts, or copy what i have said on any other message board to other message boards.
that is known in the messgae board world as cheap, low, immature, gossipy and a breaking of confidendences. and you might also be called a snitch or a stool pigeon.
in one of your posts here you mention another member of PA by name. did you have her permission to do so?
if you were to focus your attention on ms. alli, and on what can you do for YOUR recovery, your time would be better served.
otherwise you will continue to hang yourself on these boards and make more enemies than friends.
i guess you must be quite surprised to see that some of us from the 'other' message board that you refer to, are also members here and i might add, on many other sites as well. so watch yourself and what you blab about.
do not EVER AGAIN, ali, quote me, refer to my posts, or copy what i have said on any other message board to other message boards.
that is known in the messgae board world as cheap, low, immature, gossipy and a breaking of confidendences. and you might also be called a snitch or a stool pigeon.
in one of your posts here you mention another member of PA by name. did you have her permission to do so?
if you were to focus your attention on ms. alli, and on what can you do for YOUR recovery, your time would be better served.
otherwise you will continue to hang yourself on these boards and make more enemies than friends.
