i hear ya, amy and understand...life...it's a trip, isn't it?
much love to you, my friend.
sammy
Yes it is Sammy,
But I'm still grateful for my days here and the fact I wake up each day. The past 2 months have been pretty difficult for me and I keep looking for the light and the lesson. Sure tests the will and also my mind and where my thoughts are. It's okay. We learn to take all that comes our way with Grace. I don't need all the answers. I've put myself through alot of paces and I think I'm tired enough to now settle down, yank my negative self talk and reorganize. Looking forward to my trip away. Know they will work with the tumor and help the headaches the first week, then hopefully I'll get to work and give back. But sometimes they just put me out of comission and that's okay too. Whatever happens may it happen and may I become more clear with each day given to me.
The words you share touch my heart and I want to thank you always.
You reach out and touch with your heart and I appreciate it.
Love, PM
But I'm still grateful for my days here and the fact I wake up each day. The past 2 months have been pretty difficult for me and I keep looking for the light and the lesson. Sure tests the will and also my mind and where my thoughts are. It's okay. We learn to take all that comes our way with Grace. I don't need all the answers. I've put myself through alot of paces and I think I'm tired enough to now settle down, yank my negative self talk and reorganize. Looking forward to my trip away. Know they will work with the tumor and help the headaches the first week, then hopefully I'll get to work and give back. But sometimes they just put me out of comission and that's okay too. Whatever happens may it happen and may I become more clear with each day given to me.
The words you share touch my heart and I want to thank you always.
You reach out and touch with your heart and I appreciate it.
Love, PM
first step - continued...
Surrender
There's a huge difference between resignation and surrender. Resignation is what we feel when we've realized we're addicts but haven't yet accepted recovery as the solution to our problem. Many of us found ourselves at this point long before coming to Narcotics Anonymous. We may have thought that it was our destiny to be addicts, to live and die in our addiction. Surrender, on the other hand, is what happens after we've accepted the First Step as something that is true for us and have accepted that recovery is the solution. We don't want our lives to be the way they have been. We don't want to keep feeling the way we've been feeling.
==> What am I afraid of about the concept of surrender, if anything? What convinces me that I can't use successfully anymore?
==> Do I accept that I'll never regain control, even after a long period of abstinence?
==> Can I begin my recovery without a complete surrender?
==> What would my life be like if I surrendered completely?
==> Can I continue my recovery without complete surrender?
Surrender
There's a huge difference between resignation and surrender. Resignation is what we feel when we've realized we're addicts but haven't yet accepted recovery as the solution to our problem. Many of us found ourselves at this point long before coming to Narcotics Anonymous. We may have thought that it was our destiny to be addicts, to live and die in our addiction. Surrender, on the other hand, is what happens after we've accepted the First Step as something that is true for us and have accepted that recovery is the solution. We don't want our lives to be the way they have been. We don't want to keep feeling the way we've been feeling.
==> What am I afraid of about the concept of surrender, if anything? What convinces me that I can't use successfully anymore?
==> Do I accept that I'll never regain control, even after a long period of abstinence?
==> Can I begin my recovery without a complete surrender?
==> What would my life be like if I surrendered completely?
==> Can I continue my recovery without complete surrender?
sammy
i do not want to feel the way that i was feeling while i was using so that was why i chose to stop. my selective memory is remembering "the high" this weekend although i will not give in to my desires because i know what the outcome will be.
you are an inspiration to me always and to many others! keep posting!
i do not want to feel the way that i was feeling while i was using so that was why i chose to stop. my selective memory is remembering "the high" this weekend although i will not give in to my desires because i know what the outcome will be.
you are an inspiration to me always and to many others! keep posting!
pregnantmom-
i pray for your recovery as you are so sincere with your thoughts.
i pray for your recovery as you are so sincere with your thoughts.
mornin' jeepster -
lemme remind myself about something i once was taught - it is perfectly ok for my "selective memory" to kick into gear. perfectly ok to remember the high...walk all the way up to the top. however, don't stop there - it is very important that once we think about that "high" we also walk back down to our bottom - our low. this is where this first step has come in handy for me.
i did my first step on paper and i visualize everything i wrote - when i first started using, how much, the ensuing consequences, as a result of my addiction etc. clearly, i could see the progression of this disease when i did it like that.
doing what you have just done, reaching out to another addict in recovery is a powerful start. there is absolutely nothing, my friend, that taking a pill will make better. you know, perhaps a shift in our perception would help when we get up in our heads and romance the high? perhaps, looking at this as a sign that there is some underlying issue that needs to be addressed? i know when i had cravings or would think about using, that was an indicator of how i use to handle or cope with what i needed to cope with. when i didn't use - and worked on whatever the problem was, my spirit was able to awake.
please write more, jeep.
much love to you -
sammy
lemme remind myself about something i once was taught - it is perfectly ok for my "selective memory" to kick into gear. perfectly ok to remember the high...walk all the way up to the top. however, don't stop there - it is very important that once we think about that "high" we also walk back down to our bottom - our low. this is where this first step has come in handy for me.
i did my first step on paper and i visualize everything i wrote - when i first started using, how much, the ensuing consequences, as a result of my addiction etc. clearly, i could see the progression of this disease when i did it like that.
doing what you have just done, reaching out to another addict in recovery is a powerful start. there is absolutely nothing, my friend, that taking a pill will make better. you know, perhaps a shift in our perception would help when we get up in our heads and romance the high? perhaps, looking at this as a sign that there is some underlying issue that needs to be addressed? i know when i had cravings or would think about using, that was an indicator of how i use to handle or cope with what i needed to cope with. when i didn't use - and worked on whatever the problem was, my spirit was able to awake.
please write more, jeep.
much love to you -
sammy
sammy
you are so right you cant forget the lows when you remember the highs
it should be a natural progression but its not fun so we shy away from it
but never forget never forget
pregnant mom...
i follow you around in these posts b/c you help so much
your honesty and your heart inspires
i know you are not perfect and we all have our issues but thank you for everything
i am praying for you
you should write a book...
~Adam A
you are so right you cant forget the lows when you remember the highs
it should be a natural progression but its not fun so we shy away from it
but never forget never forget
pregnant mom...
i follow you around in these posts b/c you help so much
your honesty and your heart inspires
i know you are not perfect and we all have our issues but thank you for everything
i am praying for you
you should write a book...
~Adam A
I agree with you on that one Adam, PM has been a shining light in my life as has Sammy......(pstttt.... I LOVE YA BOTH SOOOO MUCH), and I do not know where my life would be without them. They both have the wonderful hearts, and souls. I am glad to see you sticking around, it was nice to talk with you last night and get to know you a little better. Hope all is going well. Sammy, I look forward to getting on here every morning to see if you have more work for me to do. This is how both me and my hubby are spending our evenings now. He has decided to work the steps even though he is not an addict. I told him that it could help him to work out stuff in his own head, and as he is learning about himself, he is learning about me too, and vice-versa. This has been a great thing for us, thank you for posting all of it. We do look forward to this everyday. God Bless....
I love ya,
Huggles
Lady M
I love ya,
Huggles
Lady M
you are not so bad yourself Lady...
thanks for the jokes also...
there are so many good people on here with so much good advice
~Adam A
thanks for the jokes also...
there are so many good people on here with so much good advice
~Adam A
Hi Everyone,
This post will be short but Ill try to come back because I wanna talk a bit about sacrifice. Only I need to pull it together a little cuz I cant remember what I wanted to say and my bp is too low to pull it together.
Jeepster, Ive been watching you grow here and I hope and pray for your recovery. You are a neat person and I enjoy your posts.
Lady M, I love you too and I thank you for all the encouragement you have given me.
Youre a dear friend and wow we even live close .. sort of. Its fun to be able to hang out with out with you and talk like I use to do with my sister. So youre my new sis. I like creating my own family. Still think you need to come over for those Ghirardelli brownies one day. I make em real gooooooood.
Adam, Your words touched my heart. I use to write poetry. I never saved any of it. After my stroke I did not have any words come my way and no more rhymes. I could not even talk right. I rarely write now. I think these boards may bet the true first of my writings. So thank your kind words. Sometimes I dont know what to say but want to help so I just write whatever comes up. I often wanted to write a book but I dont feel very eloquent in my writing. Maybe someday. I love that you are here now. You add another great persoanlity to the board.
Sammy, I too look for your writings each day and try to meditate on the words of wisdom you share. I hope you keep being here. You have helped me in ways I cannot express and I think youre a pretty awesome friend. Thanks for being there for me. Im grateful aHi Everyone,
This post will be short but Ill try to come back because I wanna talk a bit about sacrifice. Only I need to pull it together a little cuz I cant remember what I wanted to say and my bp is too low to pull it together.
Jeepster, Ive been watching you grow here and I hope and pray for your recovery. You are a neat person and I enjoy your posts.
Lady M, I love you too and I thank you for all the encouragement you have given me.
Youre a dear friend and wow we even live close .. sort of. Its fun to be able to hang out with out with you and talk like I use to do with my sister. So youre my new sis. I like creating my own family. Still think you need to come over for those Ghirardelli brownies one day. I make em real gooooooood.
Adam, Your words touched my heart. I use to write poetry. I never saved any of it. After my stroke I did not have any words come my way and no more rhymes. I could not even talk right. I rarely write now. I think these boards may bet the true first of my writings. So thank your kind words. Sometimes I dont know what to say but want to help so I just write whatever comes up. I often wanted to write a book but I dont feel very eloquent in my writing. Maybe in the future. I love that you are here now. You add another feature to the board.
Sammy, I too look for your writings each day and try to meditate on the words of wisdom you share. I hope you keep being here. You have helped me in ways I cannot express and I think youre a pretty awesome friend. Thanks for being there for me. Im grateful always.
Theres more later
Love, PM
Theres more later
Love, PM
This post will be short but Ill try to come back because I wanna talk a bit about sacrifice. Only I need to pull it together a little cuz I cant remember what I wanted to say and my bp is too low to pull it together.
Jeepster, Ive been watching you grow here and I hope and pray for your recovery. You are a neat person and I enjoy your posts.
Lady M, I love you too and I thank you for all the encouragement you have given me.
Youre a dear friend and wow we even live close .. sort of. Its fun to be able to hang out with out with you and talk like I use to do with my sister. So youre my new sis. I like creating my own family. Still think you need to come over for those Ghirardelli brownies one day. I make em real gooooooood.
Adam, Your words touched my heart. I use to write poetry. I never saved any of it. After my stroke I did not have any words come my way and no more rhymes. I could not even talk right. I rarely write now. I think these boards may bet the true first of my writings. So thank your kind words. Sometimes I dont know what to say but want to help so I just write whatever comes up. I often wanted to write a book but I dont feel very eloquent in my writing. Maybe someday. I love that you are here now. You add another great persoanlity to the board.
Sammy, I too look for your writings each day and try to meditate on the words of wisdom you share. I hope you keep being here. You have helped me in ways I cannot express and I think youre a pretty awesome friend. Thanks for being there for me. Im grateful aHi Everyone,
This post will be short but Ill try to come back because I wanna talk a bit about sacrifice. Only I need to pull it together a little cuz I cant remember what I wanted to say and my bp is too low to pull it together.
Jeepster, Ive been watching you grow here and I hope and pray for your recovery. You are a neat person and I enjoy your posts.
Lady M, I love you too and I thank you for all the encouragement you have given me.
Youre a dear friend and wow we even live close .. sort of. Its fun to be able to hang out with out with you and talk like I use to do with my sister. So youre my new sis. I like creating my own family. Still think you need to come over for those Ghirardelli brownies one day. I make em real gooooooood.
Adam, Your words touched my heart. I use to write poetry. I never saved any of it. After my stroke I did not have any words come my way and no more rhymes. I could not even talk right. I rarely write now. I think these boards may bet the true first of my writings. So thank your kind words. Sometimes I dont know what to say but want to help so I just write whatever comes up. I often wanted to write a book but I dont feel very eloquent in my writing. Maybe in the future. I love that you are here now. You add another feature to the board.
Sammy, I too look for your writings each day and try to meditate on the words of wisdom you share. I hope you keep being here. You have helped me in ways I cannot express and I think youre a pretty awesome friend. Thanks for being there for me. Im grateful always.
Theres more later
Love, PM
Theres more later
Love, PM
pm... and others
i feel like the little kid on the block and you guys have been great
thanks for welcoming me
i mean that from the bottom of my heart
you guys will never know how much you have helped me these last few days
~Adam A
i feel like the little kid on the block and you guys have been great
thanks for welcoming me
i mean that from the bottom of my heart
you guys will never know how much you have helped me these last few days
~Adam A
Hey Adam,
You are the little kid on the block and we are right here for ya!!!! Love, PM
You are the little kid on the block and we are right here for ya!!!! Love, PM
Thanks Pm
it feels good to have people
and good people at that
~Adam A
it feels good to have people
and good people at that
~Adam A
From Sammy's Post
I was thinking of sacrificing and surrendering being the same. Anyway, got this idea from a lecture and wanted to share.
The Transformation of a Caterpillar
As a caterpillar changes it eats and rests then it begins to molt. It expands and in the final stage of molting it forms a cocoon around it.. In the midst of this cocoon it hangs by a tree. It prepares for what it is already in potential. Everything becomes fluid. Its all swirling potential and in that potential it becomes what it was always meant to be. Pretty soon it emerges, pumps the fluid through its wings to expand and flies away. This is a beautiful analogy of who we are. When we decide we are tired of being just human or just addicts and we want tot know what we really are we go into the silence of being and as we emerge we find out who we truly are... You are Divinly human you are a Divine being on a human journey.
The emergence of the butterfly requires an absolute demand that there is a sacrifice or surrender of the caterpillar. For the divine spark in you to emerge you have to surrender your talk of ... youre only human, I cant do this, this is impossible, I give up etc etc. Your sacrifice out of addiction means surrendering everything you know yourself to be. It takes great courage but the caterpillar must be sacrificed to become the butterfly. There is no other way.
Sacrifice is derived by the Latin Sacrificium and means the forfeiting of something importance in the receiving of something even greater. Isnt that neat?!!! Even in the midst of human suffering, there is a Power that is overcoming and that can change us and that can make us feel even in the midst of our greatest confusion, fear, upset, hopelessness and sadness that there is something that says align yourself with the Divine and wake up to who you are truly meant to be.
The emptiness contains the allness. If we just hang on and surrender it to a Higher Power there is an answer. Blessing to all of you in your recovery. I was just seeing how the caterpillar relates to addiction and what Sammy was saying.
Love, PM
I was thinking of sacrificing and surrendering being the same. Anyway, got this idea from a lecture and wanted to share.
The Transformation of a Caterpillar
As a caterpillar changes it eats and rests then it begins to molt. It expands and in the final stage of molting it forms a cocoon around it.. In the midst of this cocoon it hangs by a tree. It prepares for what it is already in potential. Everything becomes fluid. Its all swirling potential and in that potential it becomes what it was always meant to be. Pretty soon it emerges, pumps the fluid through its wings to expand and flies away. This is a beautiful analogy of who we are. When we decide we are tired of being just human or just addicts and we want tot know what we really are we go into the silence of being and as we emerge we find out who we truly are... You are Divinly human you are a Divine being on a human journey.
The emergence of the butterfly requires an absolute demand that there is a sacrifice or surrender of the caterpillar. For the divine spark in you to emerge you have to surrender your talk of ... youre only human, I cant do this, this is impossible, I give up etc etc. Your sacrifice out of addiction means surrendering everything you know yourself to be. It takes great courage but the caterpillar must be sacrificed to become the butterfly. There is no other way.
Sacrifice is derived by the Latin Sacrificium and means the forfeiting of something importance in the receiving of something even greater. Isnt that neat?!!! Even in the midst of human suffering, there is a Power that is overcoming and that can change us and that can make us feel even in the midst of our greatest confusion, fear, upset, hopelessness and sadness that there is something that says align yourself with the Divine and wake up to who you are truly meant to be.
The emptiness contains the allness. If we just hang on and surrender it to a Higher Power there is an answer. Blessing to all of you in your recovery. I was just seeing how the caterpillar relates to addiction and what Sammy was saying.
Love, PM
the first step, continued...
__________________
Spiritual principles
In the First Step, we will focus on honesty, open-mindedness, willingness, humility, and acceptance.
The practice of the principle of honesty from the First Step starts with admitting the truth about our addiction, and continues with the practice of honesty on a daily basis. When we say "I'm an addict" in a meeting, it may be the first truly honest thing we've said in a long time. We begin to be able to be honest with ourselves and, consequently, with other people. If I've been thinking about using or acting out on my addiction in some other way, have I shared it with my sponsor or told anyone else?
==> Have I stayed in touch with the reality of my disease, no matter how long I've had freedom from active addiction?
==> Have I noticed that, now that I don't have to cover up my addiction, I no longer need to lie like I did? Do I appreciate the freedom that goes along with that? In what ways have I begun to be honest in my recovery?
Practicing the principle of open-mindedness found in Step One mostly involves being ready to believe that there might be another way to live and being willing to try that way. It doesn't matter that we can't see every detail of what that way might be, or that it may be totally unlike anything we've heard about before; what matters is that we don't limit ourselves or our thinking. Sometimes we may hear NA members saying things that sound totally crazy to us, things like "surrender to win" or suggestions to pray for someone we resent. We demonstrate open-mindedness when we don't reject these things without having tried them.
==> What have I heard in recovery that I have trouble believing? Have I asked my sponsor or the person I heard say it, to explain it to me?
==> In what ways am I practicing open-mindedness?
The principle of willingness contained in the First Step can be practiced in a variety of ways. When we first begin to think about recovery, many of us either don't really believe it's possible for us or just don't understand how it will work, but we go ahead with the First Step anyway-and that's our first experience with willingness. Taking any action that will help our recovery shows willingness: going to meetings early and staying late, helping set up meetings, getting other NA members' phone numbers and calling them.
==> Am I willing to follow my sponsor's direction?
==> Am I willing to go to meetings regularly?
==> Am I willing to give recovery my best effort? In what ways?
The principle of humility, so central to the First Step, is expressed most purely in our surrender. Humility is most easily identified as an acceptance of who we truly are - neither worse nor better than we believed we were when we were using, just human.
==> Do I believe that I'm a monster who has poisoned the whole world with my addiction? Do I believe that my addiction is utterly inconsequential to the larger society around me? Or something in between?
==> Do I have a sense of my relative importance within my circle of family and friends? In society as whole? What is that sense?
==> How am I practicing the principle of humility in connection with this work on the First Step?
To practice the principle of acceptance, we must do more than merely admit that we're addicts. When we accept our addiction, we feel a profound inner change that is underscored by a rising sense of hope. We also begin to feel a sense of peace. We come to terms with our addiction, with our recovery, and with the meaning those two realities will come to have in our lives. We don't dread a future of meeting attendance, sponsor contact, and step work; instead, we begin to see recovery as a precious gift, and the work connected with it as no more trouble than other routines of life.
==> Have I made peace with the fact that I'm an addict?
==> Have I made peace with the things I'll have to do to stay clean?
==> How is acceptance of my disease necessary for my continued recovery?
Moving on
As we get ready to go on to Step Two, we'll probably find ourselves wondering if we've worked Step One well enough. Are we sure it's time to move on? Have we spent as much time as others may have spent on this step? Have we truly gained an understanding of this step?
Many of us have found it helpful to write about our understanding of each step as we prepare to move on.
==> How do I know it's time to move on?
==> What is my understanding of Step One?
==> How has my prior knowledge and experience affected my work on this step?
We've come to a place where we see the results of our old way of life and accept that a new way is called for, but we probably don't yet see how rich with possibilities the life of recovery is. It may be enough just to have freedom from active addiction right now, but we will soon find that the void we have been filling with drugs or other obsessive and compulsive behaviors begs to be filled. Working the rest of the steps will fill that void. Next on our journey toward recovery is Step Two.
__________________
Spiritual principles
In the First Step, we will focus on honesty, open-mindedness, willingness, humility, and acceptance.
The practice of the principle of honesty from the First Step starts with admitting the truth about our addiction, and continues with the practice of honesty on a daily basis. When we say "I'm an addict" in a meeting, it may be the first truly honest thing we've said in a long time. We begin to be able to be honest with ourselves and, consequently, with other people. If I've been thinking about using or acting out on my addiction in some other way, have I shared it with my sponsor or told anyone else?
==> Have I stayed in touch with the reality of my disease, no matter how long I've had freedom from active addiction?
==> Have I noticed that, now that I don't have to cover up my addiction, I no longer need to lie like I did? Do I appreciate the freedom that goes along with that? In what ways have I begun to be honest in my recovery?
Practicing the principle of open-mindedness found in Step One mostly involves being ready to believe that there might be another way to live and being willing to try that way. It doesn't matter that we can't see every detail of what that way might be, or that it may be totally unlike anything we've heard about before; what matters is that we don't limit ourselves or our thinking. Sometimes we may hear NA members saying things that sound totally crazy to us, things like "surrender to win" or suggestions to pray for someone we resent. We demonstrate open-mindedness when we don't reject these things without having tried them.
==> What have I heard in recovery that I have trouble believing? Have I asked my sponsor or the person I heard say it, to explain it to me?
==> In what ways am I practicing open-mindedness?
The principle of willingness contained in the First Step can be practiced in a variety of ways. When we first begin to think about recovery, many of us either don't really believe it's possible for us or just don't understand how it will work, but we go ahead with the First Step anyway-and that's our first experience with willingness. Taking any action that will help our recovery shows willingness: going to meetings early and staying late, helping set up meetings, getting other NA members' phone numbers and calling them.
==> Am I willing to follow my sponsor's direction?
==> Am I willing to go to meetings regularly?
==> Am I willing to give recovery my best effort? In what ways?
The principle of humility, so central to the First Step, is expressed most purely in our surrender. Humility is most easily identified as an acceptance of who we truly are - neither worse nor better than we believed we were when we were using, just human.
==> Do I believe that I'm a monster who has poisoned the whole world with my addiction? Do I believe that my addiction is utterly inconsequential to the larger society around me? Or something in between?
==> Do I have a sense of my relative importance within my circle of family and friends? In society as whole? What is that sense?
==> How am I practicing the principle of humility in connection with this work on the First Step?
To practice the principle of acceptance, we must do more than merely admit that we're addicts. When we accept our addiction, we feel a profound inner change that is underscored by a rising sense of hope. We also begin to feel a sense of peace. We come to terms with our addiction, with our recovery, and with the meaning those two realities will come to have in our lives. We don't dread a future of meeting attendance, sponsor contact, and step work; instead, we begin to see recovery as a precious gift, and the work connected with it as no more trouble than other routines of life.
==> Have I made peace with the fact that I'm an addict?
==> Have I made peace with the things I'll have to do to stay clean?
==> How is acceptance of my disease necessary for my continued recovery?
Moving on
As we get ready to go on to Step Two, we'll probably find ourselves wondering if we've worked Step One well enough. Are we sure it's time to move on? Have we spent as much time as others may have spent on this step? Have we truly gained an understanding of this step?
Many of us have found it helpful to write about our understanding of each step as we prepare to move on.
==> How do I know it's time to move on?
==> What is my understanding of Step One?
==> How has my prior knowledge and experience affected my work on this step?
We've come to a place where we see the results of our old way of life and accept that a new way is called for, but we probably don't yet see how rich with possibilities the life of recovery is. It may be enough just to have freedom from active addiction right now, but we will soon find that the void we have been filling with drugs or other obsessive and compulsive behaviors begs to be filled. Working the rest of the steps will fill that void. Next on our journey toward recovery is Step Two.
Sammy,
Goodmorning, I hope your day yesterday was a good one. I hope the party was fun for you, your family and most important, your grandson. In A.A. not all sponsors require writting on the steps, with exception to the fourth step. My sponsor does, I like that approach. I like digging down deep and exploring each step. I must say I really like the depth in which N.A. does this. Thankyou again for your posts. I enjoy finding out something new about myself every day. I'm so greatful it's a life long process, I love that I'm always considered a recovering alcoholic/addict. To be recovered means to end a process, I never want this self searching to end, I think once we get through our wreckege and an honest inventory of ourselves, it's fun to keep going and start back at square one and discover new things and be able to compare ourselves to ourselves and see a positive change, and be able to grow and correct the changes we thought we had already changed and corrected. Thanks again for taking the time to post.
Take care.....................................God bless....................................Bob
Goodmorning, I hope your day yesterday was a good one. I hope the party was fun for you, your family and most important, your grandson. In A.A. not all sponsors require writting on the steps, with exception to the fourth step. My sponsor does, I like that approach. I like digging down deep and exploring each step. I must say I really like the depth in which N.A. does this. Thankyou again for your posts. I enjoy finding out something new about myself every day. I'm so greatful it's a life long process, I love that I'm always considered a recovering alcoholic/addict. To be recovered means to end a process, I never want this self searching to end, I think once we get through our wreckege and an honest inventory of ourselves, it's fun to keep going and start back at square one and discover new things and be able to compare ourselves to ourselves and see a positive change, and be able to grow and correct the changes we thought we had already changed and corrected. Thanks again for taking the time to post.
Take care.....................................God bless....................................Bob
mornin' bob -
the party was a blast and my 2 year old grandson was the man of the hour! well, he's always the man of the hour where my heart is concerned; however, last night he realized this was about him and it was wonderful watching him enjoy.
i worked the steps in AA too, bob. as a matter of my fact, my home group is with AA. the first time i did this, i did not write down anything until i did the fourth step. the last time i did the steps, i used the NA step study guide to help me and committed my answers to paper. i have always learned better by writing things down and this method has proven beneficial to me. yet i am not so naive to realize that this is the only way for everyone. i know many people who have worked the steps just as you describe and their sobriety is shining!
you are such a gem to this board and i am so grateful to be walking with you and gina on this path. i hope she is feeling better. give her a big hug from me and tell her i love her. let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. these are the real riches of life. for when we do this, the rest will be given.
sammy
the party was a blast and my 2 year old grandson was the man of the hour! well, he's always the man of the hour where my heart is concerned; however, last night he realized this was about him and it was wonderful watching him enjoy.
i worked the steps in AA too, bob. as a matter of my fact, my home group is with AA. the first time i did this, i did not write down anything until i did the fourth step. the last time i did the steps, i used the NA step study guide to help me and committed my answers to paper. i have always learned better by writing things down and this method has proven beneficial to me. yet i am not so naive to realize that this is the only way for everyone. i know many people who have worked the steps just as you describe and their sobriety is shining!
you are such a gem to this board and i am so grateful to be walking with you and gina on this path. i hope she is feeling better. give her a big hug from me and tell her i love her. let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. these are the real riches of life. for when we do this, the rest will be given.
sammy
great message, amy -
i had never thought of the words sacrifice/surrender. i guess i had always considered sacrifice to include a victim, i.e. the sacrificial lamb. but in considering this, i can see where i did give up my self-imposed vicitimization as an addict for a freer, more clear vision of what is my truth.
thanks so much for your powerful message!
i love you -
sammy
i had never thought of the words sacrifice/surrender. i guess i had always considered sacrifice to include a victim, i.e. the sacrificial lamb. but in considering this, i can see where i did give up my self-imposed vicitimization as an addict for a freer, more clear vision of what is my truth.
thanks so much for your powerful message!
i love you -
sammy
Morning Sammy and Everyone,
Love you are sharing this wisdom with everyone.
As time nearers for me to leave I'm feeling the overwhelm of everything to do to get on that plane. So I don't know if I'll be spending much time here. I probably won't have much internet access while away so I will check in again in about a month. Everyone take care and keep working for your recovery.
Love, PM
Love you are sharing this wisdom with everyone.
As time nearers for me to leave I'm feeling the overwhelm of everything to do to get on that plane. So I don't know if I'll be spending much time here. I probably won't have much internet access while away so I will check in again in about a month. Everyone take care and keep working for your recovery.
Love, PM
Hello to all,
Sammy thank you again for the step work, another project for our evening tonight. I think when I finish, I would love to share this with you, somtime if you would like. I would just need your email or you can send me one to mine....
LadyMaverick302@comcast.net
Since you have been posting this, I would love for you to see how I have progressed once I am finished. I think it would be a kind of a tribute to you for doing all of this. Thank you from the bottom of my heart (I am finally seeing my heart and soul for the first time in years). God Bless you Sammy, and I love you.
Huggles
Lady M
Sammy thank you again for the step work, another project for our evening tonight. I think when I finish, I would love to share this with you, somtime if you would like. I would just need your email or you can send me one to mine....
LadyMaverick302@comcast.net
Since you have been posting this, I would love for you to see how I have progressed once I am finished. I think it would be a kind of a tribute to you for doing all of this. Thank you from the bottom of my heart (I am finally seeing my heart and soul for the first time in years). God Bless you Sammy, and I love you.
Huggles
Lady M
