Paula
A wee note to let you know I'm thinking of you and so sorry z didn't make an effort to stay clean. I sure know you did everything you could. But as all of know we have learned that we can't fixe it. Worrying will put us in a grave. And is that fair? Love him from a far. Love him in your dreams. Remember the boy. But let the addict go.
It will be the hardest thing you will do in this lifetime.
Sending lots of love, support to get you through this ,
Xxx
Sue
Hi Paula praying for you and your son. I'm sorry for your pain, I'm sorry for your stress, I'm sorry for your fears, I'm sorry for the panic attacks and the anxiety attacks. Please take a deep breath and remember God is the most powerful. Trust him and he will deliver. I hope I'm over stepping my ground. But I've been praying so hard and it's been helping along with all these wonderful, kind,compassionate family we'll never meet.
Dee
Dee
Thanks Friends
I was sick the last 2 days but actually yesterday was just a
Mental health day. I cried and got it out. These are some crazy
People he is with. He told me a week ago how bad it was and
He was only there to use but they used him. I'm trying not to
Let my mind go there. I know addicts will do anything for a fix.
I receive crazy messages from these people but it's my only
Contact to Z. He lost his phone or sold it. I'm loving him from a
Distance and it's so painful.
Thank you again for all the thoughts, hugs and prayers
Paula
I was sick the last 2 days but actually yesterday was just a
Mental health day. I cried and got it out. These are some crazy
People he is with. He told me a week ago how bad it was and
He was only there to use but they used him. I'm trying not to
Let my mind go there. I know addicts will do anything for a fix.
I receive crazy messages from these people but it's my only
Contact to Z. He lost his phone or sold it. I'm loving him from a
Distance and it's so painful.
Thank you again for all the thoughts, hugs and prayers
Paula
Hi Paula, It's terrible when they tell you so much. We want to know what goes on with them. But sometimes knowing too much is hard to live with. The stories my daughter has told me over the years are unbelievable. It's like something you'd see in a horrible movie.When I think of it I try to put it out of my mind again...it's hard I know! Remember his dad will be near watching over him trying to keep him from harm. Praying for you and him. Mary
I would stop them messaging you , I mean yes Z can of course but his friends should ring you only in case he is not well(touch the wood) let them know you will appreciate them stopping bothering you please, thankya
Paula,
I'm so sorry for what you're going through with Z. Like Mary said, sometimes it isn't good to know everything that goes on with our addicts. All you can do is pray for him and take care of yourself. It's out of your control. I know it doesn't help how it feels in your heart and soul but it's true and if you really understand that you have no control over it, it can help you to breathe...maybe not breathe comfortably but at least breathe a little easier. Take care of yourself and know that Z knows where help is if he wants it.
Love and hugs to you!
I'm so sorry for what you're going through with Z. Like Mary said, sometimes it isn't good to know everything that goes on with our addicts. All you can do is pray for him and take care of yourself. It's out of your control. I know it doesn't help how it feels in your heart and soul but it's true and if you really understand that you have no control over it, it can help you to breathe...maybe not breathe comfortably but at least breathe a little easier. Take care of yourself and know that Z knows where help is if he wants it.
Love and hugs to you!
Hey Paula . . .been thinking & praying for you and Z . . .how are you?
Lynn,
xoxo
Lynn,
xoxo
Paula,
Been thinking about you these last few days. How are you?
xx
Sue
Been thinking about you these last few days. How are you?
xx
Sue
Hey Paula--
Everyone is thinking about you and concerned! Time to check in with your extended family--lol!
((HUGS))) Lori
Everyone is thinking about you and concerned! Time to check in with your extended family--lol!
((HUGS))) Lori
Hey Fam
So much has been going on. Drama! It's all the same .... nothing has changed.
I had another pastor that went and talked to z. He offered to take him away
And help for a year-free.
He didn't go. My best friends husband also went the day before and prayed with
Him. It hurts bad but the seeds have been planted and people all over are praying.
I know God has a plan.
I'm actually thinking about being a chair person for an Alanon meeting.
I actually went to a concert Sunday to see the Pretenders and Stevie Nicks. I
Had fun and my fiance said I looked hot.,,lol
So, I'm trying hard to detach with love. Good days and bad days.
Thank you for checking on me!!
Love my extended family
Prayers and Hugs
Paula
So much has been going on. Drama! It's all the same .... nothing has changed.
I had another pastor that went and talked to z. He offered to take him away
And help for a year-free.
He didn't go. My best friends husband also went the day before and prayed with
Him. It hurts bad but the seeds have been planted and people all over are praying.
I know God has a plan.
I'm actually thinking about being a chair person for an Alanon meeting.
I actually went to a concert Sunday to see the Pretenders and Stevie Nicks. I
Had fun and my fiance said I looked hot.,,lol
So, I'm trying hard to detach with love. Good days and bad days.
Thank you for checking on me!!
Love my extended family
Prayers and Hugs
Paula
so glad you are taking care of you! Hard to do sometimes and will have its ups and downs as you said but it will get better and easier with time. You are a great mama and you have tried in so many ways to turn Z around!
Keep it up Paula and keep enjoying life cause it is really so short!
((Big Hugs!!))) Lori
Keep it up Paula and keep enjoying life cause it is really so short!
((Big Hugs!!))) Lori
Paula,
How are you doing? It sounds like you are getting the geist of living life again. GOOD for you!! I did it a year ago and some days my heart is heavy I don't want to think of him but I can't stop. I wonder if he is ok, warm. Then out of the blue he calls and funny my heart sinks. What does he want. I know it's not to asked about how I am and the family. He hasn't release yet that I am getting on years. I think in the drug world time stands still. He probably still thinks I am the same age as he was in high school.
Keep doing what your are doing, prayers and let him go his way, he will either decided to quit or... I'll leave it at that.
Take care.xx
Sue
How are you doing? It sounds like you are getting the geist of living life again. GOOD for you!! I did it a year ago and some days my heart is heavy I don't want to think of him but I can't stop. I wonder if he is ok, warm. Then out of the blue he calls and funny my heart sinks. What does he want. I know it's not to asked about how I am and the family. He hasn't release yet that I am getting on years. I think in the drug world time stands still. He probably still thinks I am the same age as he was in high school.
Keep doing what your are doing, prayers and let him go his way, he will either decided to quit or... I'll leave it at that.
Take care.xx
Sue
Sue
Thank you for thinking of me today. I am going to meetings and trying to live
Again. I'm even thinking about chairing a meeting. Lol
When is the last time you heard from your son?
Zach has been pretty distant lately. Hi ex is meeting him because she still loves
Him and they are going to talk about rehab and IOP. God is in control so we will see.
Hugs and Prayers
Paula
Thank you for thinking of me today. I am going to meetings and trying to live
Again. I'm even thinking about chairing a meeting. Lol
When is the last time you heard from your son?
Zach has been pretty distant lately. Hi ex is meeting him because she still loves
Him and they are going to talk about rehab and IOP. God is in control so we will see.
Hugs and Prayers
Paula
Sounds positive!! Good for you. Haven't heard from j since Jan 25. Last time it was almost 6 months. My outlook is no news is good news. I finally released in his world life stands still and when he releases it he will call
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So excited for your new role :).lets us know how it went. If you need some background sayings to use review our stories. Get strategies you can pull from to help other parents xxx
I really feel like I've lost my son. I can't reach him at all. No reply to my messages
And if I call he hangs up the phone. He never met his ex because I think he is high
Every day. He's been on a binge since the day after Christmas. The transgender person he
Stays with is 41 and says she is only a friend and that her gay friend wants Z. The gay
Guy said he and the transgender has got something. They both lie bad.
A friend of Z called and said he was really messed up and hung up on her but when I ask the
Trans...all is good and he is sober. I'm literally sick at my stomach because I think Z is so
Addicted that he will do anything and there's not a dang thing I can do.
I just know have to trust Jesus.
Please keep us in your prayers'
It's not good but at any given moment.....things can change by the grace of
God.
Hugs and Prayers
PAULA
And if I call he hangs up the phone. He never met his ex because I think he is high
Every day. He's been on a binge since the day after Christmas. The transgender person he
Stays with is 41 and says she is only a friend and that her gay friend wants Z. The gay
Guy said he and the transgender has got something. They both lie bad.
A friend of Z called and said he was really messed up and hung up on her but when I ask the
Trans...all is good and he is sober. I'm literally sick at my stomach because I think Z is so
Addicted that he will do anything and there's not a dang thing I can do.
I just know have to trust Jesus.
Please keep us in your prayers'
It's not good but at any given moment.....things can change by the grace of
God.
Hugs and Prayers
PAULA
I am so sorry Paula, at one point situacion sounded positive an looked like Zac will get out and clean his act.. maybe not today but you have to find strength to keep going ,fighting.
Hi Paula, Is there no way you can get the police involved? Maybe saying he's being held there against his will? I'm so sorry he's got himself into this situation. I hope and pray someone will come along and get him out of it if he can't get out of it himself. I take it he's still doing the drug "Wet" or what do you think he's on? That friend who calls you....can you call him back and try to get him to help you or tell you a way to help Zach? I'm sorry you have this worry Paula I am just shocked at what's happening and will be praying for his safety. God bless. Mary. (((Hugs)))
Mary
It's awful
The 2 people that he is around both lie and say they will not allow drugs in their
House but The last day I talked to him sober was Christmas Day.
I didn't tell y'all that they hacked into my bank and tried to get 1500$. I immediately
Changed everything. He felt he had a right to the money because I have power of attorney
Over $ dad left when he passed but it's down to almost nothing after all the rehabs, sober
Living, etc. I think that's why he is not talking to me because I am no longer enabling in
Any way. It's really sad because this is not my son but a very desperate drug addict.
I've had a pastor go and my best friends husband who was on the police force for 30 years.
They tried to take Z but he wouldn't go. The transgender is a prostitue and the gay guy
Has got a long list from being in jail.
My last resort is writing the Judgw in that Precint and sending documentation and pictured
And see if there is anything at all that can me done. I'm going to Houston I'm a few days and
I'm going to that house to see my son. I'm nervous because it's a very bad area but I'm
Going to try to reach him face to face.
Thank you for the prayers
Paula
It's awful
The 2 people that he is around both lie and say they will not allow drugs in their
House but The last day I talked to him sober was Christmas Day.
I didn't tell y'all that they hacked into my bank and tried to get 1500$. I immediately
Changed everything. He felt he had a right to the money because I have power of attorney
Over $ dad left when he passed but it's down to almost nothing after all the rehabs, sober
Living, etc. I think that's why he is not talking to me because I am no longer enabling in
Any way. It's really sad because this is not my son but a very desperate drug addict.
I've had a pastor go and my best friends husband who was on the police force for 30 years.
They tried to take Z but he wouldn't go. The transgender is a prostitue and the gay guy
Has got a long list from being in jail.
My last resort is writing the Judgw in that Precint and sending documentation and pictured
And see if there is anything at all that can me done. I'm going to Houston I'm a few days and
I'm going to that house to see my son. I'm nervous because it's a very bad area but I'm
Going to try to reach him face to face.
Thank you for the prayers
Paula
Paula--
I know how this is breaking your heart and I wish I could say or do something to make it better. Was hoping Con would give you some advice from her perspective, but she has left the group! I am so sorry you or any of us has to go through this horrible time with our addicts!
I am praying for your Z and hoping he will turn his life around and make the choice to get free of his addictions!
Hugs--Lori
I know how this is breaking your heart and I wish I could say or do something to make it better. Was hoping Con would give you some advice from her perspective, but she has left the group! I am so sorry you or any of us has to go through this horrible time with our addicts!
I am praying for your Z and hoping he will turn his life around and make the choice to get free of his addictions!
Hugs--Lori
Hi Paula. I'm so sorry you are hurting. This constant chaos we moms go through is awful.
Such a horrible feeling. My son once stole my identity and ordered a iPad to sell for heroin. Which he did. I found out right away and paid the bill. If I could go back in time I would call the police and and press charges. But no I enabled him. A few days later he got caught with $50 heroin and did 2 years in prison cuz he failed out of the drug court twice.
I now have Lifelock and every 3 months I put a fraud alert on my and my husbands credit bureaus so no one can apply for credit in our name. Look what us moms go through. It's insane.
Please try to remain calm. In all the millions of times I've worried about my so and drove myself to insanity, you know what.. my son was just fine. The addict knows what they're doing. Making us worry is one of their manipulations. Please try to calm down. Do something nice for yourself. Paula go get your nails done do something to relax. You deserve to be happy. You deserve peace. And not one bit of your stress will stop their using it won't change a single thing or make it one bit better. It took me 14 years to figure this out.
Such a horrible feeling. My son once stole my identity and ordered a iPad to sell for heroin. Which he did. I found out right away and paid the bill. If I could go back in time I would call the police and and press charges. But no I enabled him. A few days later he got caught with $50 heroin and did 2 years in prison cuz he failed out of the drug court twice.
I now have Lifelock and every 3 months I put a fraud alert on my and my husbands credit bureaus so no one can apply for credit in our name. Look what us moms go through. It's insane.
Please try to remain calm. In all the millions of times I've worried about my so and drove myself to insanity, you know what.. my son was just fine. The addict knows what they're doing. Making us worry is one of their manipulations. Please try to calm down. Do something nice for yourself. Paula go get your nails done do something to relax. You deserve to be happy. You deserve peace. And not one bit of your stress will stop their using it won't change a single thing or make it one bit better. It took me 14 years to figure this out.
