thanks for the replys guys. but no i dont have mpd! and i would not bother making up something so stupid wendy, honestly! i know them around there at the service station....so they knew i would be back! they know im not a thief! i went in and paid for milk, and the husband obviously didnt remember to mention the petrol and i obvoiously just forgot about it! so they have written themselves a note to remind me the next time i came in!!! i guess not everyone is sooo dramatic.....i mean when u know someone....calling the cops cuz they forgot to pay for something?!?! a bit over the top i think! yes i agree, if i pulled in somewhere they didnt know of me, i got petrol and just took off, then they would probably look up my number plate and report me, but not in a situation like this! i felt bad enough about it and the lady was even telling me not to stress!
yeh i agree danny, those info commercials should make anyone fall asleep anyway lol! i will persist with it!!!! i will mention the bad memory to my doctor lixie, it cant hurt.
OOps,
My bad
Wendy
My bad
Wendy
dont worry about it. i hope ur coping alright with this sweltering darn heat!!! i think it was 39% last i checked! thank god for air conditioning!!
Elvis,
Not coping real well, no air con
Melting in Gembrook
Wendy
Not coping real well, no air con
Melting in Gembrook
Wendy
Elvis,
You asked if stress affects memory? No, not like what you seem to be experiencing. I'm sure it does to some extent, but not like this. Be careful.
I take no pity on you people "down under." We are just entering a deep freeze here, and I would trade you in an instant.
Danny, as an official insomniac, I've actually begun to enjoy some infomercials. They have some pretty interesting stuff! Must say though, I can't watch the ones about cleaning products. I mean really, how much can be said about the latest high tech broom?
You asked if stress affects memory? No, not like what you seem to be experiencing. I'm sure it does to some extent, but not like this. Be careful.
I take no pity on you people "down under." We are just entering a deep freeze here, and I would trade you in an instant.
Danny, as an official insomniac, I've actually begun to enjoy some infomercials. They have some pretty interesting stuff! Must say though, I can't watch the ones about cleaning products. I mean really, how much can be said about the latest high tech broom?
Atlas- No offense to our Austalian friends, but have you nooticed all the Aussie spokeman on infomercials? Whats up with that? They always seems to be yelling too.
Some infomercials though, are downright fraud. I'm suprised they can get away with some of the claims.
Some infomercials though, are downright fraud. I'm suprised they can get away with some of the claims.
Elvis if you google these exact words you will find a ton of information regarding memory loss and ambien.
google: ambien memory
google: ambien memory loss
google: ambien problems
google: ambien memory
google: ambien memory loss
google: ambien problems
Thanks for your responses guys and i will look those up thanks brook! Off to bed for now but wendy my god no air con you poor thing. Im gonna keep the fan on in my room tonight, as i can't keep the air con on all night, but don't expect to get much sleep. Take care , talk soon.
P.S Danny yeah one of the aussie guys does scream on one of our info commericials, but we don't all talk like that LOL. :)
P.S Danny yeah one of the aussie guys does scream on one of our info commericials, but we don't all talk like that LOL. :)
Ya Elvis- Those aussie guys are always screaming about the amazing wonders of the kitchen/toilet/bath cleaner or the amazing food processor or that "got to have" broom that sweeps up everything, including the famiily dog and youngest child.
I saw an infomercial the other night that was absolutely outrageous. I mean, it was really inappropriate for non-adult television, regardless if it was on at 3:00am. It was for some drug that is a natural male enhancer type of thing. Good enough..who cares, right? Well, as part of the infomercial, they has a man on the street interview portion and this really good looking woman was stopping couples on the street and asking if they ever heard of or used the product and of course, they all did. What bothered me about it was First: The guy vividly described how enhanced he was. Complete with a physical measurement. Second, and this was really preposterous, each guy has this absolutely gorgeous women on his arm (or all over them), either his girlfriend or his wife. These women were Playboy quality. Stunning. And the guys were the average Joe Blow type or worse. anyway, the women all smiled and nodded agreement and said how happy they were with the enhanced Man. Like THAT ever happens in real life. It was so blatant that it bothered me to think people would actually be THAT stupid to believe it and that there was a company peddling their drug to people they THOUGHT were that stupid to by their claims. And this was on regular TV. It was pretty disgusting and blatant predatory.
I saw an infomercial the other night that was absolutely outrageous. I mean, it was really inappropriate for non-adult television, regardless if it was on at 3:00am. It was for some drug that is a natural male enhancer type of thing. Good enough..who cares, right? Well, as part of the infomercial, they has a man on the street interview portion and this really good looking woman was stopping couples on the street and asking if they ever heard of or used the product and of course, they all did. What bothered me about it was First: The guy vividly described how enhanced he was. Complete with a physical measurement. Second, and this was really preposterous, each guy has this absolutely gorgeous women on his arm (or all over them), either his girlfriend or his wife. These women were Playboy quality. Stunning. And the guys were the average Joe Blow type or worse. anyway, the women all smiled and nodded agreement and said how happy they were with the enhanced Man. Like THAT ever happens in real life. It was so blatant that it bothered me to think people would actually be THAT stupid to believe it and that there was a company peddling their drug to people they THOUGHT were that stupid to by their claims. And this was on regular TV. It was pretty disgusting and blatant predatory.
hahhahhahhahhahhahhaha LOL LOL...and was it an aussie one?! thats ridiculously funny!!! i mean "oh pleeeeeaasseee" LOL!
Elvis, I am worried about you. I know you quit zanax and for that I am so glad.
I looked at the first link that Atlas posted and found a good post from Calabash. I am going to repost it and hope you read it, word for word, and let it resonate.
I agree with Cynical also; scars run deep. However, we have the power to shift from the victim into the survior. Not merely surviving, but living. Life is ours for the claiming and it is uncomfortable, but oh so worth it.
Elvis, you have a choice. Doesn't seem like you are living much anyway; what have you got to lose! Here is that post:
"Elvis
I appreciate that your circumstances are not ideal, but it would help you a great deal to look outside of your world. I agree with the previous post that you do not have it that bad. I found in my own recovery whenever I had a pity party for myself, the best cure was/is to reach out to others.
That is why Na meetings (yes absolutely free) are so important to me. It gives me a platform where I can serve others - as well as helping myself of course. Service is a very important part of our recovery.
In your posts you are always in effect of the world. The world acts onto you. This is called playing the victim. Your life will change when you decide to act on the world. This is called being empowered. A good example of this is Victor Frankl - a holocaust survivor. If you want to see how bad it can get for some, but who choose not to play the victim give it a read.
The universe has a set of laws. One of these is we get what we ask for. In every aspect of our lives there is choice. Choice is not comfortable always. You are addicted to your comfort zone. You have rendered yourself unable to act. I appreciate you may have certain phobias. They are your creation. This does not mean they are not real, they may well be, but they are your creation.
The way I understand life is that it is a process of creation, everything we think, say or do puts a energy into the universe. The lowest energy is thought, then words, and finally the highest energy in the universe is ACTION. You struggle to change your life, because you operate only on the lowest energy levels, thought and word.
What holds you back from action is your addiction to comfort.
I was similar to you in many ways, but my addiction taught me to stop being a victim. Mty recovery requires Action. This allows me to create a entirely new reality for myself, as action has high energy, and creates change in the universe.
Another universal law is cause and effect. Part of the reason nothing changes for you is because you change nothing. You think about change. You talk about change. But even phoning for volunteer work is too much of a shift from your comfort zone. You are not putting in enough effort to change anything. You have stopped creating.
BUT YOU HAVE THE POWER!. This is why I post this long post to you. You can do it. And recently you have. You described going to the park and talking to people! This is an action. It has a high level of energy it places into the universe. You did it. You did not talk about it! Do it some more. Do it every day.
You will find from that, a change will happen. It will become easierr. You may make a friend. But something good will come from what you have created.
So please, do more. Get to a meeting. Get a job. Your addiction to being comfortable is stealing your life. And we account for how we used our lives in the universal order. This is your one chance. Use it.
Put your faith in the universal force that loves us all, that yearns for us all to be who we truly are. The cricumstances are irrilevant. Express who you are through DOING
With positve feelings
Calabash"
I looked at the first link that Atlas posted and found a good post from Calabash. I am going to repost it and hope you read it, word for word, and let it resonate.
I agree with Cynical also; scars run deep. However, we have the power to shift from the victim into the survior. Not merely surviving, but living. Life is ours for the claiming and it is uncomfortable, but oh so worth it.
Elvis, you have a choice. Doesn't seem like you are living much anyway; what have you got to lose! Here is that post:
"Elvis
I appreciate that your circumstances are not ideal, but it would help you a great deal to look outside of your world. I agree with the previous post that you do not have it that bad. I found in my own recovery whenever I had a pity party for myself, the best cure was/is to reach out to others.
That is why Na meetings (yes absolutely free) are so important to me. It gives me a platform where I can serve others - as well as helping myself of course. Service is a very important part of our recovery.
In your posts you are always in effect of the world. The world acts onto you. This is called playing the victim. Your life will change when you decide to act on the world. This is called being empowered. A good example of this is Victor Frankl - a holocaust survivor. If you want to see how bad it can get for some, but who choose not to play the victim give it a read.
The universe has a set of laws. One of these is we get what we ask for. In every aspect of our lives there is choice. Choice is not comfortable always. You are addicted to your comfort zone. You have rendered yourself unable to act. I appreciate you may have certain phobias. They are your creation. This does not mean they are not real, they may well be, but they are your creation.
The way I understand life is that it is a process of creation, everything we think, say or do puts a energy into the universe. The lowest energy is thought, then words, and finally the highest energy in the universe is ACTION. You struggle to change your life, because you operate only on the lowest energy levels, thought and word.
What holds you back from action is your addiction to comfort.
I was similar to you in many ways, but my addiction taught me to stop being a victim. Mty recovery requires Action. This allows me to create a entirely new reality for myself, as action has high energy, and creates change in the universe.
Another universal law is cause and effect. Part of the reason nothing changes for you is because you change nothing. You think about change. You talk about change. But even phoning for volunteer work is too much of a shift from your comfort zone. You are not putting in enough effort to change anything. You have stopped creating.
BUT YOU HAVE THE POWER!. This is why I post this long post to you. You can do it. And recently you have. You described going to the park and talking to people! This is an action. It has a high level of energy it places into the universe. You did it. You did not talk about it! Do it some more. Do it every day.
You will find from that, a change will happen. It will become easierr. You may make a friend. But something good will come from what you have created.
So please, do more. Get to a meeting. Get a job. Your addiction to being comfortable is stealing your life. And we account for how we used our lives in the universal order. This is your one chance. Use it.
Put your faith in the universal force that loves us all, that yearns for us all to be who we truly are. The cricumstances are irrilevant. Express who you are through DOING
With positve feelings
Calabash"
Reading this thread, especially the exchange with Atlas, just reaffirms what I've come to believe for some time now: we're getting played, not maliciously or out of spite, but played nonetheless. It's the nature of addiction I guess -- sometimes it's done with sweetness and pitiful tales, other times its done with angry denunciations and denials. Elvis, God Bless you honey, I think you fall into the former category.
I swore I'd not post to you again because I felt my posts were having more of a negative than positive effect. Also, it's hard to keep that controlling ego out of it after months, and months, and months of trying to show compassion . But I do hope you get the courage -- or desperation -- to take the kind of action so many on this Board have pleaded with you to take over the years. We all get there in our own time, I guess, so keep doing what you need to do . . . . no one can force you to do a thing.......but do try to listen to Littlebeach, Atlas, and others, for they speak with wisdom and compassion. Misery is optional. You have so much more to give, and thereby receive, from life! One day, I hope you will be able to see and believe this also. You deserve it! Peace, None.
I swore I'd not post to you again because I felt my posts were having more of a negative than positive effect. Also, it's hard to keep that controlling ego out of it after months, and months, and months of trying to show compassion . But I do hope you get the courage -- or desperation -- to take the kind of action so many on this Board have pleaded with you to take over the years. We all get there in our own time, I guess, so keep doing what you need to do . . . . no one can force you to do a thing.......but do try to listen to Littlebeach, Atlas, and others, for they speak with wisdom and compassion. Misery is optional. You have so much more to give, and thereby receive, from life! One day, I hope you will be able to see and believe this also. You deserve it! Peace, None.
thankyou littlebeach and none. i pretty sure i understand what is being said, and although i dont like to dwell on these things i take it into consideration. i must say though, i have only ever spoken about what was happening in my life, with me, ive never tried to "play" anyone, and i doubt really wouldnt know how to do that. thanks for caring!
take care
take care
Elvis
How old are you honey>??
Im not joking when i tell you that hormones can play a huge part in memory problems....
I actually thought I was getting Alzheimers recently....Id go to the fridge and totally forget what i was there for, be driving and forget where im going...and totally forget peoples names and or where i parked the car...
i kid you not..
my dr said stress does come into play...the brain when over stimulated cant focus on more than one thing...but also she said that many patients going through peri-menopause come in with similar memory complaints...
Check with your Dr honey...maybe get your hormones checked...
If your under huge amounts of stress, you need to find a way to relieve some of it...easier said then done i know...
Keep posting..
hugs
Ali
How old are you honey>??
Im not joking when i tell you that hormones can play a huge part in memory problems....
I actually thought I was getting Alzheimers recently....Id go to the fridge and totally forget what i was there for, be driving and forget where im going...and totally forget peoples names and or where i parked the car...
i kid you not..
my dr said stress does come into play...the brain when over stimulated cant focus on more than one thing...but also she said that many patients going through peri-menopause come in with similar memory complaints...
Check with your Dr honey...maybe get your hormones checked...
If your under huge amounts of stress, you need to find a way to relieve some of it...easier said then done i know...
Keep posting..
hugs
Ali
Elvis, will you do me a favor?
I know many have suggested this, but I really do care, and I think that you are getting closer to listening. Or at least hope.
Denial is part of our disease. Our minds play tricks on us to keep our disease safe; it wants to use. It will deny any real need to seek help or to do necessary action to get better.
Will you please go to a women's meeting of AA? You don't have to talk, and I know you are probably not an alcoholic, but you definately have a problem with pills.
Please substitue pills in your mind when you hear drinking when the women talk. Not your old place, but AA out of the phone book. You will find that there are people from all walks of life there and not only needle kinds. Not that that is bad; I know that you believe that you are not there yet.
You will find a simple set of suggestions that can help you take your life back. We all have obstacles; hell, I am raising three kids. It is hard. But one day, my victim world was to painful to live in anymore, and I had to change. It hurt. But it was the needed pain because today, life is better.
I know it can be scary; I understand. Just take a breath, look up Alchoholics Anonymous in the phone book and GO. You don't have to say a word....just listen. See if you don't see yourself there, and also people that have gone through hell and are now happy.
I know you said you don't want to go to meetings. Lots of people don't want to go, and find that they actually like them.
I am not trying to recruit you. I just think that if you go and see what it is really like, you might have a completely different view. The program has little tips and steps about living life...and how to do it without a pill or a drink.
okay, enough out of me. Just go.
I know many have suggested this, but I really do care, and I think that you are getting closer to listening. Or at least hope.
Denial is part of our disease. Our minds play tricks on us to keep our disease safe; it wants to use. It will deny any real need to seek help or to do necessary action to get better.
Will you please go to a women's meeting of AA? You don't have to talk, and I know you are probably not an alcoholic, but you definately have a problem with pills.
Please substitue pills in your mind when you hear drinking when the women talk. Not your old place, but AA out of the phone book. You will find that there are people from all walks of life there and not only needle kinds. Not that that is bad; I know that you believe that you are not there yet.
You will find a simple set of suggestions that can help you take your life back. We all have obstacles; hell, I am raising three kids. It is hard. But one day, my victim world was to painful to live in anymore, and I had to change. It hurt. But it was the needed pain because today, life is better.
I know it can be scary; I understand. Just take a breath, look up Alchoholics Anonymous in the phone book and GO. You don't have to say a word....just listen. See if you don't see yourself there, and also people that have gone through hell and are now happy.
I know you said you don't want to go to meetings. Lots of people don't want to go, and find that they actually like them.
I am not trying to recruit you. I just think that if you go and see what it is really like, you might have a completely different view. The program has little tips and steps about living life...and how to do it without a pill or a drink.
okay, enough out of me. Just go.
((((((((((((((((((elvis))))))))))))))))))))))))
great suggestions here.............
stand up, look in the mirror and look at yourself closely for a long time.....
keep telling yourself you are special and that you love yourself.....
look in the mirror several times a day and sit there.........
look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you love yourself......
i see the loving kind beautiful heart you have.......
i see how many people are trying so hard to reach out to you.......
they are pulling words from deep with inside their heart.......
to some how help you............
to show how help you out of this MINDSET.........
thats really what it is elvis.........
there has to be a change for you , you cont keep living like this....
take ACTION girlfriend...........
guess what elvis.......i am even making an appointment to go too counseling.
this is real big for me, cause i have never ever gone....
i have never thought that "I" would need to speak to a professional.
see that was a mindset that i had.........
now that there are no pills or weed to sink my mind into....
everything is clear and right in my face....things that i have surpressed
for many many years elvis..........
are comming to the surface........
now i see why i started using.........
i was not a bad person.......i was a very productive lady..
i went to work everyday and went to college and finished.
but i was also smoking weed and taking pills.....
now that there is no more pills or weed.....
i am realizing that ...NOW WHAT......
i have nothing....to escape elvis.....
so i have decided to go to couseling......
i really think that you would have a great time going to a meeting...
listening to everyone.........
my husband goes and he's been going for 16 years now............
God Bless you elvis..........
love yourself
thumper
great suggestions here.............
stand up, look in the mirror and look at yourself closely for a long time.....
keep telling yourself you are special and that you love yourself.....
look in the mirror several times a day and sit there.........
look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you love yourself......
i see the loving kind beautiful heart you have.......
i see how many people are trying so hard to reach out to you.......
they are pulling words from deep with inside their heart.......
to some how help you............
to show how help you out of this MINDSET.........
thats really what it is elvis.........
there has to be a change for you , you cont keep living like this....
take ACTION girlfriend...........
guess what elvis.......i am even making an appointment to go too counseling.
this is real big for me, cause i have never ever gone....
i have never thought that "I" would need to speak to a professional.
see that was a mindset that i had.........
now that there are no pills or weed to sink my mind into....
everything is clear and right in my face....things that i have surpressed
for many many years elvis..........
are comming to the surface........
now i see why i started using.........
i was not a bad person.......i was a very productive lady..
i went to work everyday and went to college and finished.
but i was also smoking weed and taking pills.....
now that there is no more pills or weed.....
i am realizing that ...NOW WHAT......
i have nothing....to escape elvis.....
so i have decided to go to couseling......
i really think that you would have a great time going to a meeting...
listening to everyone.........
my husband goes and he's been going for 16 years now............
God Bless you elvis..........
love yourself
thumper
The physical universe applauds actions - not thought!
When I aplly this in my own life, it abounds with infinate possibilities, and is a sure way to achieve change in my life.
clabash
When I aplly this in my own life, it abounds with infinate possibilities, and is a sure way to achieve change in my life.
clabash
just one question: wouldnt it be better if she attended NA instead of AA? not that AA wouldnt help cuz it will but NA is specifically for pills/ drugs, just curious...
Elvis..... why do you always reply...I will take it into consideration? jule
Elvis..... why do you always reply...I will take it into consideration? jule
Thumper...I am so very happy that you have made this decision! Good for you honey...it is not easy to go and open up. I pray that you find someone that you like and are willing to open up to.
When you do!! You will be so amazed at how much power that was taken away by the use of narcotics returns...there is nothing more freeing than that feeling!
Look at you grow...you are on your way up...yet once again!
Good advice to Elvis Kerry...I pray she takes it...
When you do!! You will be so amazed at how much power that was taken away by the use of narcotics returns...there is nothing more freeing than that feeling!
Look at you grow...you are on your way up...yet once again!
Good advice to Elvis Kerry...I pray she takes it...
thankyou for all of ur replys....it actually made me a bit weepy! so many people are so kind!
ali, i have actually had a thyroid problem for a while....so thats a hormone prob yeh? i have had a slow metabolism, and my gyno put me on "thyroxin". i take one a day, and since i have started taking them i have actually lost 10kg! i was always a thin girl, then i got fluid retention and put on a bit of weight and was diagnosed with the thyroid prob! i have a blood test in a few weeks to re-check my levels to re-asses the medication! ive also heard that stress can be a factor in ocd, it really annoys me esp at night but im trying to cope with it. i take anafranil (anti-depressant) to help cope with it, but think another approach besides medication is also needed!
i am not opposed to going to aa, but i have to ask would na be better like jewls said? the main reason i have never gone is that, i have always been frightenend of the people i would meet.....i dont mean to insult anyone. just people that use needles and stuff and street drugs, its sort of scares me. sorry i dont mean to offend anyone. i do realise i have a pill problem, and i always have. even if im not taking them, its always the first thought that comes to my mind when there is a prob ...."oh god, what can i take"...ive tried private counselling so many times....
jewls i always say i will take things into consideration because, whether i read a post and like what was said or not, i will still take what that person has said to me into consideration.
thankyou all so much for taking the time to post to me!!!! xoxoxoxoox
p.s thumper good luck with ur counselling too! u know this comment reminded me of myself "i was a very productive lady..i went to work everyday and went to college and finished". ive lost alot of confidence too for some reason.
ali, i have actually had a thyroid problem for a while....so thats a hormone prob yeh? i have had a slow metabolism, and my gyno put me on "thyroxin". i take one a day, and since i have started taking them i have actually lost 10kg! i was always a thin girl, then i got fluid retention and put on a bit of weight and was diagnosed with the thyroid prob! i have a blood test in a few weeks to re-check my levels to re-asses the medication! ive also heard that stress can be a factor in ocd, it really annoys me esp at night but im trying to cope with it. i take anafranil (anti-depressant) to help cope with it, but think another approach besides medication is also needed!
i am not opposed to going to aa, but i have to ask would na be better like jewls said? the main reason i have never gone is that, i have always been frightenend of the people i would meet.....i dont mean to insult anyone. just people that use needles and stuff and street drugs, its sort of scares me. sorry i dont mean to offend anyone. i do realise i have a pill problem, and i always have. even if im not taking them, its always the first thought that comes to my mind when there is a prob ...."oh god, what can i take"...ive tried private counselling so many times....
jewls i always say i will take things into consideration because, whether i read a post and like what was said or not, i will still take what that person has said to me into consideration.
thankyou all so much for taking the time to post to me!!!! xoxoxoxoox
p.s thumper good luck with ur counselling too! u know this comment reminded me of myself "i was a very productive lady..i went to work everyday and went to college and finished". ive lost alot of confidence too for some reason.
